Worry

I keep thinking about Craig and what would happen if he died. I'd be alone here, with no friends, no support. It scares the hell outta me that if it happens. I would have to give away everything, give away our three kitties since I would not be able to keep them, and god knows what then. I don't have any money, only those grants I get every so often, its not a monthly check and right now I am not capable of taking care of myself if he did die. I would then end up on the streets. This is very depressing to continuously thinking about. I try not to think about it. Its hard to continuously wonder what may happen to you. yes I may sound pathetic, but its something that can be real. I can't get it out of my head and its driving me nuts.

What I am doing right now to keep from giving up everything? I have been in school since last February 2011 taking up IT Programming and Web Design with the hopes to lead me to a wonderful job. I am thinking about continuing my education since I get my Associates degree in January 2013, to get my Bachelor’s degree.

There I go again thinking bad thoughts again. What happens while in school I am in the middle of this process?  God, I'm not making any sense.  I did submit my resume and cover letter for an IT company for Intern so I am hoping to get word back. I haven't gotten any word back yet and it’s been a week now. I must have been too late for submission. I am going to have to find other intern jobs (with pay) so I could be able to get some pocket money and put away for a rainy day.