Memories of you at the Park by the Cathedral

These pictures were taking at the park by Marlborough Avenue where we used to live which is 19 West End Park.    We decided to go for a walk to get out of the house for a short while and ended up going to the park by the Catherdral.

I am thinking of you at 4am in the morning and I still cannot believe that you are gone.  I miss you so much.  I can’t stop myself from crying.  I wish you were here.  You always put a smile on my face and new how to cheer me up when I was feeling down.  My heart is broken without you.

Happy 2nd Anniversary

Happy Anniversary sweetheart.  It’s been a month you had passed away.  This would had been our 2 year wedding anniversary.  I wish you were here to celebrate it with me.  You have no idea how much I miss you very much.  I still cry every day wishing you hadn’t passed away and was safe in my arms.

Well listening to the song you had dedicated to me so I decided to play it while typing this blog in memory of you.
                        The Carpenters - I won’t last a day without you

I’m thinking of the day you told me that you had dedicated this song to me and started singing it to me and started to cry.  I held you and started kissing you and telling you how much I love you.

Your last picture

I was looking through your ipad photos and came across of your last selfie you took which you were in the hospital.  Just what I wanted to see is you smiling.

Even times when you are in pain and sad you still placed a smile on your face and made me smile too because you knew we both don’t like being sad in front of each other.  Honey, I know you were in pain and I wish you didn’t have to leave this world and me as well.  We had plans for 2019 and onto better things.  But we never got to do that.  

I’m so glad my last words to you were “I love you very much” and your reply was “That’s what I needed to hear”.

Living on the edge

You used to always say “Living on the edge” when it comes to chinese food or pizza.  Those were your favorite foods.  Of course spaghetti as well but you always mentioned Chinese food and pizza which we done frequently.

Craig’s death ceremony pictures

Craig Sowle

Dec 8, 1960 - Dec 18, 2018

RIP CRAIG, MY BEAUTIFUL HUSBAND

I had bad news today  My beautiful husband Craig had passed away Tuesday morning 18th December 2018.  I am having a hard time moving forward and living without him now.  I’m very much heartbroken because I have been taking care of him since his nervous system attacked his body about 5 years ago.  He was in Letterkenny Hospital for 2 weeks because he had been having headaches.

I was going to view a house in Killea (Ireland) and after the viewing (it was raining out too) I got the call from Galway hospital since he was going down there to get a stent put in.  He wasn’t feeling well and kept going in and out of consciousness and then his heart stopped.  They used CPR for 50 minutes and then stopped.

I called a couple of my aunts because I was heading back at home in letterkenny.  I didn’t know what to do either go Letterkenny or Derry to be with family and friends.  So I chosen Derry because I didn’t want to be alone.  I went to my friend Lorraine’s work and have a talk and some tea.

At Lorraine’s work I tried everything to get in touch with my family and my uncle Joe said he will pick me up.  OMG I’m soo depressed and devastated.  I’m freaking out.

I'm in Galway

Got messages on skype that Craig needed me down in Galway so I took the next bus out there which was last Friday evening.  I was starting to get scared.  He was in the HDU (High Dependency Unit) where he was hooked up in the machine, and tube through his nose.

I ended up staying at the hospital that night and slept out in the hallway waiting room.  The next morning quickly looked at a B&B but took the first that was available for 3 days.  Had to dip into the savings.  He was eventually transferred to St Teresas Ward.  When the 3 days were up I told him that I had to leave to go back up to Letterkenny.  He started to get emotional because it meant that he was going to be alone.  I told him that I will dip into savings again to spend another 3 days in the same B&B (Abbey Lodge) so he was relieved about that.