Christmas Tree Lighting vs. Thanksgiving

Last year we missed out on the Christmas Tree Lighting event because we thought that if we went out to see it, we wouldn’t be able to get back home because the bus transportation here sucks at night. I think the last bus is 9:00pm or something like that. We were bringing hopes for this year because of this move into into the town, which changed within a day, making us stay put in the apartment.

I was thinking this year we should go to see the tree lighting but then we got an invitation from my sister to come see her for Thanksgiving in Connecticut. It was a nice invitation and it is a decision that we have to make either going to the Christmas Tree Lighting or attend to my sister’s Thanksgiving invitation so we are going to see them this year. We just have to miss out the tree lighting this year again, however, there are other events during the holiday season that are probably nice to take a look at and attend.  I will do some researching on any Christmas events for this year.

Change plans on moving

 

We were going to move into the town of Portland but plans changed since I got a call from them asking for money from my Pell grant.  So yes, I am still annoyed at University Of Phoenix for fucking up my plans on moving by taking away some of my Pell grant, $977 to be exact. I still think it is ridiculous for them to take that money away when I am going to receive the last disbursement next month anyway. I’m sick and tired of University Of Phoenix bullshit.  I was really looking forward to moving into town because we could do things in the evenings, but we can’t do it now because I was going to use that $977 toward the moving.  Its really annoying because I am getting this money back this money anyway.  It doesn’t make any sense.  We were so lucky that the management didn’t put the apartment up for rent.  So it was okay.  Then we had to call Housing that we are going to have to stay for now.    This is ridiculous.  Damn University of Phoenix.  We could had been homeless.

The People

  

After examining the people here in Portland Maine, I realized how ignorant they could be. They are very standoffish. Robert was out for his appointment last winter and he got off the bus about a mile away, which means he got off earlier than he suppose to. He was walking and slipped on some ice on the floor and not one person would help him up from the floor. He kept slipping so he had to wait for a 5 minutes until someone actually saw him from the store. She rushed outside and helped him up.

From what I experienced within the year we have been here is that they are nice people, however, they are hard to get to know. They are very standoffish. I guess that's why we don't have any friends here yet.

There are people above us: a mother and daughter. We bumped into the mother in the laundry and we started talking and the mother asked us if we hear anything and I had to let her know that yes we do hear everything up there including here daughter playing the guitar at 2am in the morning. It took me a couple of times to complain not to play the guitar in the middle of the night. During the day she could play as loud as she wants but after 11pm its actually disturbing the peace. I gotten yelled at from Robert that I was being rude banging the stick to the ceiling. I was pissed off. I’m being rude at 2am? What about her upstairs who plays the guitar.

I was so looking forward to living the town but we can't do anything now because of the shitty school that I am attending asking for that money back. So we continue staying here and listen to the bullshit.

I also noticed that the people here are very laid back and do things very slow. My application for DHSS is still pending for benefits since January.

Holiday Job caller

 The holidays are coming up really soon and employers are going to be looking for employees.  I had a phone call today and it was from Time Warner.  The hours weren’t bad but the only thing that was in the way to providing my help to them is having a smart phone.  I only hold a regular cell phone that just makes phone calls and text messages.  Its interesting that you have to have these kind of gadgets in today’s world.  So I couldn’t provide them my services to them.  So I am a little upset.

Hurricane Sandy, Portland, Maine, Spring Ledge Lighthouse

 Hurricane Sandy, Portland, Maine, Spring Ledge Lighthouse

A couple of days ago has been a very bad hurricane which everybody called Hurricane Sandy which turned out to be a tropical storm. We didn’t get as much of the storm as others did such as New York, and New Jersey. We had rain a couple of hours but then turned into very bad winds. I had broadcast it from the apartment in case others were wondering how bad we got it.

Appointment to see an apartment

Well we took a look at the apartment today to see what it was like.  Of course just like every other apartment has its positives and negatives.  This one was on the top floor which is the 4th floor.  First floor are stores.  All the room has wooden floors and when you walk you could hear crackling from the floors and not sure if people below could hear.  I don't mind the layout, what is putting me off is the crackling of the wooden floors.  There is no elevator, of course no elevator doesn't bother me, I'm just concerned with Craig going up and down the stairs. The hallway stairway cracks too, and it reminds me of the apartment my mother had back in the late 70s.  We could be able to see the bay and you could feel a breeze through the building with the windows open.  I like the small balcony which is nice.  Craig doesn't mind the area because his doctor's office which he goes weekly is just across the street and that could be very convenient for him.  Its not a bad apartment, but I think we could probably get a better apartment.  Craig doesn't like the fact that we would be doing laundry a block away.  I suppose he is so used to having laundry within the building.  But the fact is that he barely does any laundry so if anything I do the laundry. Of course I don't mind having laundry in the building because it is very convenient.  But like I said I think we could get a better apartment.  We could still look for other apartments.  

A floor plan that I had created of the apartment

The apartment was being used still and the people who live there are still getting sorted out.  The living-room was filled with paintings and paints.  This person must be an artist or something like that.  Interesting. 

Moving Decisions!

Wow, I cannot believe that we have moved into Maine a year ago. I never really thought we would end up moving here. The year went by fast. Considering that this is a very small apartment, I would be happy and glad to be out of this apartment. It is too small for the both of us plus(+) three kitties. We really didn't know how big this apartment was going to be because we were in Washington and Craig kept in contact with the manager as there were several properties owned by them. At the time there were only 2 apartments available, and one was with a tub and the other without one and Craig loves taking his baths. So you probably guessed right which apartment we chosen. We only looked at pictures so we knew what the rooms looked like, we just didn't know how big it was.

We had thought about a few things when our lease is up. We could look for another apartment that is in the town rather than in the suburb, or we could stay here until next September in the meantime to purchase a used vehicle so we could travel around. It really would be a convenience to us if we had a bigger apartment and in the town so we could be able to walk around such as the Farmer's Market over the weekends. The bus transportation sucks. So we wouldn't have to worry about buses in the town. There is also continue to live here until the spring time and see what happens then. The decision was more closer to moving into the town.

Speaking of moving, lately I have been thinking about Northern Ireland. Yes, right now I am closer to my family and if I moved to Northern Ireland, I would be further away from them again. But i would be with my relatives once again. I really am starting to miss it and I remember that time I was living there that I was happy. I discussed my feelings to Craig and how I feel about it and want to eventually relocate there and possibly settle down. Then I got to thinking that we could possibly relocate there if it was planned out. It would be nice to move there before the year is up but I don't think I could see that happening.

Intern email

Well I got a reply from the web development company who was looking for interns.  They had reviewed my work, and unfortunately they were looking for something with more experience.  It did read all entry levels available, so I am thinking if they are looking for something with more experience then they should be more specific rather saying ALL ENTRY LEVELS AVAILABLE.  That's like giving the people the go around.

I am very sad and disappointed to hear about this turn down.  I was hoping that I was able to get the intern job.  But you know what?  I am not going to upset about it.  There are more jobs or interns out there somewhere.  That company isn't the only company.  I am trying to keep my head high with pride. 

Worry

I keep thinking about Craig and what would happen if he died. I'd be alone here, with no friends, no support. It scares the hell outta me that if it happens. I would have to give away everything, give away our three kitties since I would not be able to keep them, and god knows what then. I don't have any money, only those grants I get every so often, its not a monthly check and right now I am not capable of taking care of myself if he did die. I would then end up on the streets. This is very depressing to continuously thinking about. I try not to think about it. Its hard to continuously wonder what may happen to you. yes I may sound pathetic, but its something that can be real. I can't get it out of my head and its driving me nuts.

What I am doing right now to keep from giving up everything? I have been in school since last February 2011 taking up IT Programming and Web Design with the hopes to lead me to a wonderful job. I am thinking about continuing my education since I get my Associates degree in January 2013, to get my Bachelor’s degree.

There I go again thinking bad thoughts again. What happens while in school I am in the middle of this process?  God, I'm not making any sense.  I did submit my resume and cover letter for an IT company for Intern so I am hoping to get word back. I haven't gotten any word back yet and it’s been a week now. I must have been too late for submission. I am going to have to find other intern jobs (with pay) so I could be able to get some pocket money and put away for a rainy day.