Saturday, April 18, 2015

Is it going to end?

Last night I had been feeling emotional in bed.  I was putting on Craig's hand supporters to help him keep his wrists up and was thinking back how he was able to use his hands with pain free as well in his legs.  He was telling me about that this is life and we would have to deal with things like this whether we like it or not.  He is getting slightly better, I wish it was now.  I suppose that I am worrying about if this is going to be the way his life is going to be, and receiving those monthly treatments at the IV fusion place to help his immune system.

I was thinking back the times before any of this has happened.  Approximately 2 1/2 years ago one day he left the house on his appointment feeling fine and dandy until he came back and got out of the cab and his leg gave up.  That's when things started happening.  I also was thinking about how he used to cook dinners and helping around the house and taking those walks.  I think that kind of hit me when i was laying in bed last time.

Do you know how things in life change?  I don't know why but I cannot seem to accept that whole thing had happened to him and I just want to wake up from this dream

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