Getting stronger

Its good to see Craig's legs are getting stronger from his exercises.  He has came a long way with his therapy but sadly that his insurance couldn't cover his therapy anymore as it reached to its max.  All he needs to do now is to continue exercising daily with his legs and arms.  I still cannot understand and why his hands are curved under his wrists and how that happened.  Eventhough he doesn't use the walker in the house I am still concerned that he may fall forward and would break his wrists altogether with the impact to the floor.

We have been going out for walks a couple of times a day every other day.  Just seems that he gets tired after those two walks on that one day, and its only around the block which is like a half a mile.  This takes about 30 to 40 minute walk because of his walker.  Great to see the walker have wheels it makes things move a bit faster for him.

Is it going to end?

Last night I had been feeling emotional in bed.  I was putting on Craig's hand supporters to help him keep his wrists up and was thinking back how he was able to use his hands with pain free as well in his legs.  He was telling me about that this is life and we would have to deal with things like this whether we like it or not.  He is getting slightly better, I wish it was now.  I suppose that I am worrying about if this is going to be the way his life is going to be, and receiving those monthly treatments at the IV fusion place to help his immune system.

I was thinking back the times before any of this has happened.  Approximately 2 1/2 years ago one day he left the house on his appointment feeling fine and dandy until he came back and got out of the cab and his leg gave up.  That's when things started happening.  I also was thinking about how he used to cook dinners and helping around the house and taking those walks.  I think that kind of hit me when i was laying in bed last time.

Do you know how things in life change?  I don't know why but I cannot seem to accept that whole thing had happened to him and I just want to wake up from this dream

The Hands and Legs

It seems that Craig has been a little depressed about his condition.  He is feeling pain in his left leg and wondering if he would have straight hands again since his wrists are pushed downwards making his hands down like a puppy's front paw as if the front leg was up.  There is little muscle meat on the top of his forearm which makes it difficult for him to lift his hands up since that's where he could be able to have the strength in him.  if he has that, then he would be able to lift his hands up. He doesn't even know if the physical therapy is working.  The therapist see some movement, Time is running out and doesn't know if his insurance will cover it.  He just has to continue with his homework at home, even after the treatments are over.  

It snowed today so he didn't want to risk going outside and falling.  I think part of the reason is that he is loosing hope on getting better.  He's so burnt out fighting and fighting with his condition that he just wants it over and have his life back again.  I could understand that.  I get burnt out too because I am still lifting him up from the sofa and wiping himself after he goes to the bathroom and doing other things too.