Missing Home

The past couple of days I have been thinking about home back in New Jersey and how it would be great to be closer to them and to get to see the family more often and when I want.  I think about Thanksgiving Day and Christmas Day where families get together and all the other holidays too.  Whenever these holidays come I think about how families get together and enjoying themselves and here I am many miles away from my family.  I never have money and hadn't worked in four years now.  This long distance between us is not working.  It was different years ago.  I was younger and I wanted to explore new places.  I feel such an outsider because I live so far away.

Craig and I have been thinking of relocating to Portland, Maine.  It is where he wants to move and I guess settle down which is why we are relocating at the end of the year.  Now I am getting this feeling in my gut that I probably would want to live much closer to them.  There are nephews and nieces and I'm missing out on their childhood.  I have a brother who I haven't seen in years.  I haven't talked to Craig, yet, about my feelings on this. 

Am I homesick?  I don't know.  Maybe.

Helping out a homeless friend

I am so aggravated at a friend right now.  Wednesday he calls up crying and rambling on the phone that the owner of the house was throwing him out because the owner was selling the house.   We took him in so we could talk to him that night because my partner knows a lot about his situation and where he could go as a homeless person.  He was looking for something to drink so my partner said water.  I mentioned there is orange juice and apple cranberry juice.  He then spotted the milk and made it clear the he ‘loves’ milk.  It seemed that he didn’t eat anything and was eating stuff from the fridge and our cereal.  After a long time I told him the first thing he should do is get things done early and to start seeing people at 8.30am.

I told him the first thing he should do when he gets up to go to places like seeing his case manager (which is in Portland Oregon) and clinics around this area who could support homelessness and could provide temporary housing.

That morning I went to the fridge and the gallon of milk we bought a day and a half ago we nearly gone.  I asked what he was doing for the morning and he told me that he couldn't do anything until after 1pm.  I don't know any company or clinic or whichever where you have to wait until after 1pm, the day was nearly over by that time.  I told him that my partner had an appointment at noon and I needed to head to college to study.  Technically we couldn't keep him here.  We couldn’t afford to take on someone.

I had talked to him Friday and he was telling me that he chanced it by sleeping at the house where he was kicked out from where there was no electricity. I was throwing out questions to know how he was doing but he was ignoring all my questions.

Yesterday I asked him where he was staying and he told me at Pollys Adult Home but was outside using his laptop by the dumpster.  I was confused on what he was saying.  Trying to get as much information out of him, he suddenly jumps down my throat saying that he was homeless and has been spending the night outside in the cold.  But he never said that.  He stated that he was at the PAH, that was it.  But for some reason I wasn't too sure why he was using the electricity by the dumpster behind the building.  He kept saying that it was cold outside.  Yes I feel bad about his situation but I don’t have much care if he doesn’t care for himself.  Why should I care about someone else if they are not going to care for themselves?  All of a sudden he started to say how retarded I was and bitched out at me about his situation.

I said, “Dude, first off, I don't like or appreciate people calling names.  I find that very rude and obnoxious.  And saying retarded is a very childish name. Second off, I asked you from the beginning where are you staying and did you have a place to stay and you did state that you were staying at the Pollys and then said you were outside.”

Basically what I was trying to do was to get a clear picture of what his plans were going to be.  So I told him not to be jumping down my throat because he was pissed off because he was homeless.  I also told him that my partner and I did what we could to help him bout.  I then told him to read his emails because I had sent him VALUABLE INFORMATION to help him.  I don’t even know why I even bother when he was not even helping himself out.

My partner had given him valuable information the night we took him in for the night what he should be doing.  My partner and I were doing this so he could be prepared what he needs to be doing in that morning.  I mean, my mouth dropped when he told me that he couldn’t do anything after 1pm.  We were confused what he meant by that.  We don't know any place where people had to wait that late of the day to seek help, especially with people in his condition.  My partner knows it because he has been in his shoes plenty of times.

He could have done something that Friday before the weekend started so he could have a place to stay.  So I told him that it was his life and that I had my life and need to get back to my studies.  I just left it like that.  But he’s not going to come back here because for one we didn’t see any progress and two my partner told me that he didn’t want to deal with another person was like his ex.

It’s interesting how you help people out and they shit all over you.

Thanksgiving Arrangements

 Since last week my friend Marcia and I have been discussing about arrangements for Thanksgiving.  I was telling her that we have a Turkey and all that.  She was interested in when I told her that she and her daughter are welcome to come over if they wanted to.  She then suggested that we could bring the food down there to her house and have Thanksgiving there and we could end up spending the night as well.  It was really nice offer her saying that.  We don't mind going into Portland Oregon and spend time with her and her daughter.  This also gives time for Marcia and I to work on our shows. 

Marcia and I have a show which is called Marcia and Brian's Dance Party.  I was thinking about getting the show prepared for Christmas, since Craig and I won't be going to New Jersey to see the family.  Marcia has her own show and she wanted me to be her special guest on the show, and of course I have my own show apart from that as well.  I have a couple of shows. One is "Short Talk" and the other is "Bear Talk, Woof".  Bear Talk Woof has its own group on Facebook created by myself and now I have created the show.  I would like to make it more interesting by putting on a show with special guests or Live Callers.

This past weekend Marcia and I were on the phone and she mentioned that she wasn't sure what she was going to do.  However, she has a sister from Seattle who wanted Marcia to come up to see her.  I know Marcia is a little sad because this time last year her mother past away and I know it is very hard for her which was why I suggested for her to spend Thanksgiving with us.  I know how she is feeling and being down and everything but ceasing celebrations are not going to bring the people who past on back to our world. 

I was talking with her last night and she mentioned about coming to spend Thanksgiving with us rather us going to see her which is fine.  I told Marcia that her daughter could bring her laptop and hook the internet up here to keep her daughter from being bored.  So we'll see if they will end up coming over here tomorrow.

School postpone

I am a little annoyed because I got a call from University of Phoenix and they told me that there are not enough students for this term.   I actually wanted to start this term but I guess it’s nothing that I could do but wait until February 2011.

Disabled Unit

Craig and I decided that we wanted to move out of the small apartment, which was on the 2nd floor of course. It was a two bedroom apartment, which I was always rearranging the spare room around because that was held as a storage room. It was really annoying me. I hate clutter. I never really liked that apartment because there was a pole in the middle of the living room floor to hold up the ceiling and it was awkward to put the sofas.

I was really glad that we were left that apartment.  This new apartment was much bigger.  It was a disabled unit for wheelchair individuals since it was the only apartment that was available.  It was interesting after we moved into the new apartment that several apartments were becoming vacant.

University

I wasn’t doing anything with myself so I figure I would start school.  I went to Clark college to enquire about it.  But when I got half way there of registration, the school was full of students aready.  I was annoyed, but then I thought about University of Phoenix in Washington, of course, I would be working as an online student.  After getting sorted out as a student, it wasn’t that long until I was a full time online student with University of Phoenix for IT/Programming.  I took online classes as it would be very convenient and flexible in things that I do in my life. 

Esther Short Park, Vancouver Washington

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There is always entertainment here whenever there is festivals going on.

This is a fountain where lots of parents bring their children when it is too hot out.