Intern email

Well I got a reply from the web development company who was looking for interns.  They had reviewed my work, and unfortunately they were looking for something with more experience.  It did read all entry levels available, so I am thinking if they are looking for something with more experience then they should be more specific rather saying ALL ENTRY LEVELS AVAILABLE.  That's like giving the people the go around.

I am very sad and disappointed to hear about this turn down.  I was hoping that I was able to get the intern job.  But you know what?  I am not going to upset about it.  There are more jobs or interns out there somewhere.  That company isn't the only company.  I am trying to keep my head high with pride. 

Worry

I keep thinking about Craig and what would happen if he died. I'd be alone here, with no friends, no support. It scares the hell outta me that if it happens. I would have to give away everything, give away our three kitties since I would not be able to keep them, and god knows what then. I don't have any money, only those grants I get every so often, its not a monthly check and right now I am not capable of taking care of myself if he did die. I would then end up on the streets. This is very depressing to continuously thinking about. I try not to think about it. Its hard to continuously wonder what may happen to you. yes I may sound pathetic, but its something that can be real. I can't get it out of my head and its driving me nuts.

What I am doing right now to keep from giving up everything? I have been in school since last February 2011 taking up IT Programming and Web Design with the hopes to lead me to a wonderful job. I am thinking about continuing my education since I get my Associates degree in January 2013, to get my Bachelor’s degree.

There I go again thinking bad thoughts again. What happens while in school I am in the middle of this process?  God, I'm not making any sense.  I did submit my resume and cover letter for an IT company for Intern so I am hoping to get word back. I haven't gotten any word back yet and it’s been a week now. I must have been too late for submission. I am going to have to find other intern jobs (with pay) so I could be able to get some pocket money and put away for a rainy day.

Web Development intern job

 

I was browsing through the jobs advertisements and saw an intern job for Web Development?  I figure that I would apply for it because I know Craig has been a little sad due to always being poor all the time and we have been struggling with money.   I applied for it and I have been waiting for word back from them.  Well Today I had gotten a response from them.  They wanted me to submit some samples of my codes, so I decided to use the website that I had been creating for class to see what he thinks about it.  If he needs more samples, I will have to give him that.  We'll see.

And yes this intern is with pay.  :)

Craig was pretty happy that I had found this job and he knew that I really wanted this job so it would definitely help us with the financial situations.

Driving Across country

I never thought that I would be able to drive across country from Washington (not DC) to Maine by myself.  My mother thought I was crazy and thought I don't think I could do it.  Craig couldn't be able to drive because of his condition with lots of meds and surgery on his neck several years ago.  The first couple of days I got caught driving in the dark.  Those were scary moments.  Craig had set reservations for hotels so we couldn't just stop by at any hotel.  He marked the journey on the GPS so we don't get lost.  Each day we left earlier and earlier to avoid driving in the dark.  This was a 6 day trip driving 10-12 hours only stopping by rest areas and food.  Never again I would do this driving all by myself.  It was too much for me.  I didn't even have time to do my classes because I was utterly exhausted from the trip.  All three kitties eventually came out of the cat carrier because they wouldn't shut up meowing, but they were content afterwards. 

The route that we took was from Vancouver, Washington, to Spokane Washington, Idaho, Wyoming, Montana, South Dakota, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, New York, Connecticut, Massachusetts, New Hampshire, and finally Maine.  We did stop by my friend Sandra's house which was really nice.  I haven't seen her in like 5 years, we then went to my sister's house in Connecticut which was nice to see the children again.  We arrived in Connecticut that Thursday and spent the night.  We should had stayed for that weekend until Monday because it meant for us to stay in a hotel for that weekend since the property management doesn't work Saturdays.  I was very disappointed with Motel 6 here in Maine because we booked for the hotel for the weekend and the girl at the front desk only booked us for the night.  We had to leave hotel because people were already booked in.  We took our things and we nearly lost our cat.  Craig was holding her and by the time we were outside, she jumped out of his hands and started to run around the building.  I chased her to the back of the building calling her name.  What scared me was that there was a highway next to the building and she could had went across it.  When I called her name, she looked behind and continued to run again.  I couldn't believe it.  By the time I ran the forth corner of the building, she went on the windowsill at stayed where she was.  I slowly approached her and just grabbed her.  I was pissed.  Not at her but the fact, this bitch didn't book us for the weekend and if she would had done her job right, this wouldn't had happened. 

I am soo glad this driving and hotels are over.  Never again I would drive across country, by myself anyways.

Thoughts on relocation

We were thinking about relocating but we were undecided where we were going to move.  There were a few options, which were Philadelphia, New Jersey, and Maine.  We needed to go somewhere that is convenient for us via bus transportations and routes.  So we had done research on apartments in New Jersey and Philadelphia.  Both Philadelphia and New Jersey seems expensive our income.  Then I found out that Craig always wanted to move to Maine.  Apparently it was cheaper and he could be able to receive his insurance very quickly.  We suddenly started to look at places in Maine, and the apartments there were cheap.

Missing Home

The past couple of days I have been thinking about home back in New Jersey and how it would be great to be closer to them and to get to see the family more often and when I want.  I think about Thanksgiving Day and Christmas Day where families get together and all the other holidays too.  Whenever these holidays come I think about how families get together and enjoying themselves and here I am many miles away from my family.  I never have money and hadn't worked in four years now.  This long distance between us is not working.  It was different years ago.  I was younger and I wanted to explore new places.  I feel such an outsider because I live so far away.

Craig and I have been thinking of relocating to Portland, Maine.  It is where he wants to move and I guess settle down which is why we are relocating at the end of the year.  Now I am getting this feeling in my gut that I probably would want to live much closer to them.  There are nephews and nieces and I'm missing out on their childhood.  I have a brother who I haven't seen in years.  I haven't talked to Craig, yet, about my feelings on this. 

Am I homesick?  I don't know.  Maybe.