Weekend getaway

We decided to get away from Vermont for a few days over the weekend.  It was nice seeing them and enjoyed playing with the kids.

On Saturday while driving around Connecticut, I noticed that the drivers are very aggressive and they won't let you pass.  Like Saturday while going to the Tusk & Cup to get some coffee, I swirled around someone who had stopped to make a left and this dumb ass behind me swirled around me as I was going around the driver in front of me almost hitting me.  I tell ya, people have no patience at all.

That night we were thinking of what to eat for dinner so since we hadn't had Chinese food for a long while, that's what we had ordered.
 
Sunday we went with my sister and niece to the Danbury Mall.  Craig and I never shopped we just sat outside in the chairs in the hall waiting area.  On the way back, my niece Gemma and I played the guessing game where you think of a person place or thing and you have to ask questions to get the answer.  It was fun.

That night we went to my mother's place and had some meatloaf, veggies and mashed potatoes. Dessert we had some pound cake and ice cream.  After a while my mother was sorting out the boxes, since she is about to move at the end of the May.  She had given us some Broken Arrow pottery which she had while living in Arizona in the early 2000s.  She also given us all her Christmas decorations.  I'm starting to worry about her as she hasn't been in the spirit of things.  She's not looking forward to moving and is stressed out because she cannot find a place, not that she is looking, my sister has been doing all the looking and its stressing out my sister as well.  My mother is very picky.  My mother is also worrying about my brother I guess thinking he is back on the drugs again.  We all thought he was doing well until he fucked everything up this past Christmas.

Overall, enjoyed the time with the family, niece and nephews.

Moving Decisions again

Craig and I were talking about moving  and we aren't sure where we will be ending up.  It would be nice to be close to the family in Connecticut but Craig mentioned to me that he didn't want to move to

Connecticut but would move there anyway.  What is turning both of us off is that we don't like to hear negativity coming from my mother.  That's what she has been doing.  I mean, he doesn't like to hear negative comments that would be offensive to him coming from her.  She did state that we were a couple of Muslims or Isis with the long beards and he got offended about that, but kept his mouth shut as he didn't want to open a pack of worms so to speak.  To be honest, its something I don't want to hear either and hear her become negative all the time.  So that is the down side of it.

Craig did think about wanting to move to Canada but the only problem would be with that is that we would have to go back into the US for treatments and stuff like that.  I'm not sure with doctors.  But we would have to be there for a few years I think until we get treatment in Canada.

What he wants to do is that he wants to get a house right here in Vermont, something that he always wanted was to get a house.

So we don't know what we are going to do.  We may not be able to move until Spring time next year.  What I dread is that we would have to pick up our things again for another move.  We would have to really think this through.

The Will

Something that I didn't want or refuse to talk about and that was writing a Will.  Last night when we were in bed, Craig mentioned about us both should write a Will.  Of course, I stayed quiet watching the television as my head started wandering at the same time.  I was getting upset with the topic. Something I never thought about doing and felt the need to is to write one.  I think he was saying this because of a couple of days ago when he split his head. 

I personally don’t like talking about death and don’t take it very well so I tend to get very depressed and very sad.  So today I was thinking about the Will and everything that has happened to Craig the past several years and now his fall just days ago was making myself upset.  I don’t like to feel the need that I have to write a Will but I know deep down we both probably need to write one. 

When I think about writing a Will, I think about death coming the way.  I had thought about Craig and maybe he should be better without me, because I don’t want to see him hurt himself again as I tendencies on panicking.  I mean that fall a few days ago I thought here we go again with his fall.  But when I helped him up there was a puddle of blood.  That's when I freaked out.  Immediately I thought he was going to die. 

I don't even know if I am making any sense with this entry.  Maybe we should think about a Will.  Probably would be a smart thing to do.  I just hate the feeling of writing one thinking death is coming.