Moving Decisions again

Craig and I were talking about moving  and we aren't sure where we will be ending up.  It would be nice to be close to the family in Connecticut but Craig mentioned to me that he didn't want to move to

Connecticut but would move there anyway.  What is turning both of us off is that we don't like to hear negativity coming from my mother.  That's what she has been doing.  I mean, he doesn't like to hear negative comments that would be offensive to him coming from her.  She did state that we were a couple of Muslims or Isis with the long beards and he got offended about that, but kept his mouth shut as he didn't want to open a pack of worms so to speak.  To be honest, its something I don't want to hear either and hear her become negative all the time.  So that is the down side of it.

Craig did think about wanting to move to Canada but the only problem would be with that is that we would have to go back into the US for treatments and stuff like that.  I'm not sure with doctors.  But we would have to be there for a few years I think until we get treatment in Canada.

What he wants to do is that he wants to get a house right here in Vermont, something that he always wanted was to get a house.

So we don't know what we are going to do.  We may not be able to move until Spring time next year.  What I dread is that we would have to pick up our things again for another move.  We would have to really think this through.

The Will

Something that I didn't want or refuse to talk about and that was writing a Will.  Last night when we were in bed, Craig mentioned about us both should write a Will.  Of course, I stayed quiet watching the television as my head started wandering at the same time.  I was getting upset with the topic. Something I never thought about doing and felt the need to is to write one.  I think he was saying this because of a couple of days ago when he split his head. 

I personally don’t like talking about death and don’t take it very well so I tend to get very depressed and very sad.  So today I was thinking about the Will and everything that has happened to Craig the past several years and now his fall just days ago was making myself upset.  I don’t like to feel the need that I have to write a Will but I know deep down we both probably need to write one. 

When I think about writing a Will, I think about death coming the way.  I had thought about Craig and maybe he should be better without me, because I don’t want to see him hurt himself again as I tendencies on panicking.  I mean that fall a few days ago I thought here we go again with his fall.  But when I helped him up there was a puddle of blood.  That's when I freaked out.  Immediately I thought he was going to die. 

I don't even know if I am making any sense with this entry.  Maybe we should think about a Will.  Probably would be a smart thing to do.  I just hate the feeling of writing one thinking death is coming.

Northern Ireland or Vermont

Lately we have been talking about relocation.  He already knows that I want to move back home to Northern Ireland.  I call Ireland home because both parents are from there and all my relatives are there, even though I am born and raised in the United States.
Everything I think about Ireland and what it would feel like to be living there, I think about the things such as living in just outside the town like Claudy and having a little bungalow house or something, with a vehicle, settled down and living comfortably with our 3 cats.  He thinks it would be great to live in Ireland, but his concerns are with the illegal immigrants trying to get into England.  Also the 3 cats are a problem which we don't know if we could get the funds for them.  We only collected a small amount but that doesn't even cover rent right now.

help-bring-our-cats-back-home-to-ireland

Everything that has been talked about has been a struggle and alot of stress upon us.  Well I'm scared myself on returning because my concerns about it is that I am wondering how I am going to continue my social security disability and wonder how that works with them.  I mean, I know I could bring we could bring both of our SSD over there.  Their system could be different.  I'm not sure.  Also wondering if he will get the treatments that he needs since he has to go once a month to IV fusion to help his immune system.  Also medications and housing, and a vehicle and possibly furniture, however there are places that are furnished.

We had been talking about Vermont here and there.  There are things that are already in place, like Section 8, and don't have to worry about our SSD being cut off.  Also we could get a small house possibly and also a vehicle.  I could also get my gym that I always wanted.  But at the same time I don't feel safe in the US for some reason the way I did with Northern Ireland.  I don't know why but I just do.

Pet nightmare

I had a nightmare last night that we had given away Bella our cat, we stopped by the person's house to see how Bella does in the environment and was comfortable right up to when Craig and I were leaving. When we left the house she ran at the window watching us leave putting her paw on the window meowing

Bella relaxing on her favorite rug

Bell is always up to something

I fear that we may have to give away our three furry kids.  They all have been with us since kitten-hood.  They are very expensive to take overseas with us.  I really do not know what we are going to do with them all.  Its too heartbroken to give them away.

Buster & Augustina

Moving decisions

So we have been doing alot of researching to relocate to Ireland, all the research we could possibly can get so we could live comfortably there without any gaps.  Mom thinks that I am going to get arrested because she thinks I gave up my nationality as American.  She has no idea how much research we have been doing.  She knows how to use the computer but always jumped into conclusions.  The way I see it, if i did gave up my American citizenship, I wouldn't had gotten jobs here when I returned 2000 (see my experience while live in Ireland) "ALSO" I wouldn't had gotten my Social Security Disability.  I remember the time I lived there I was soo happy and felt safe there.  I don't think I ever was happy in the United States and how it has become.

During our time there we were looking through the town of Ridgefield, Connecticut to see what it is like there.  It was a nice small town.  Could I see myself living there?  Possibly.  Could Craig?  maybe because he needed to get services there such as certain clinics and doctors due to his condition.

So now we are on the decision on either Ireland or Connecticut.  But then again it would be nice to be closer to the children.  Also I hadn't seen my brother in years.

If I had the money I would take us to Ireland for sure, but I am not sure if I do have enough money saved up for Ireland, that could be a problem.

Decision making / preparing to relocate

Robert and I have been talking and we decided that we were going to prepare ourselves to leave the United States for good.  Its a big step of course I've done it before and I could do it again.  Robert has traveled frequently as well so I would say he could do it as well.  We have 3 cats and this could be a big challenge for us for sure.

I have been doing some researching so I could prepare ourselves for this big move.  I hear lots of prices about having your pet flying overseas.  But I haven't looked into it deeply.

We have been thinking about what we should do before leaving, and I didn't realize that we do have to do a few things before we leave, such as getting our passports, and also get married so that it would be easier for us over there in Ireland.  I want to make sure that we will do everything that we need to do before leaving.

I'm surprised that the Social Security does allow people who are collecting Social Security Disability to take their allowance overseas.  I did read that some parts Social Security will deny it due to certain reasons.

I haven't told my mother our plans on relocating back to Ireland because I know she will be filled with 50 questions.  How are you going to get there?  Where are you going to get the money for it?  Where are you going to live?  Its like totally endless and I don't want to deal with that right now.