More concerns arise

Well yesterday was the driver's test and "I failed".  I don't know what happened.  I know I am a good driver and have been driving for 15 years and haven't been in an accident before.

The instructor was a nice young woman but I noticed that she was looking around herself around the same time I have been looking around so yes she marked me for not looking.  And I don't think its fair but I know you cannot fight it because you will never win in this game when they have more power than you.  They even took my driver's license away and switched it to a Learncer's permit, which I think is pretty fucked up.  And you cannot fight it because you could never win.

This puts on a lot of pressure on me because how am I suppose to take Craig to his appointments now.  They took my license away.  We are in the middle of a very small town of 1200 people.  Now I have to worry about how to get to places such as appointments, driving down to see the family in Connecticut, etc, etc.

We are lucky that there is a small grocery store just up the street where I could be able to walk up and back.  The good thing is that its good exercise.  The bad thing is that I could only hold so many bags.

I am a little depressed and disappointed as well.

Change of concerns

I am concerned about my mother.  My stepfather and her have to move at the end of the month.  She hasn't really looked since my sister has been doing all the looking.  Both my mother and my sister's family live in Connecticut.  Mom doesn't want to live in Danbury and there aren't any big apartments in Ridgefield.  So them both are going to stay with my sister for a while, which will be nice.  It would be awkward for my mother since she doesn't like my sister's husband because of his anger issues.  But we all have anger issues every once in a while, and he was nice enough to pay for their rents but cannot do it anymore which was why my mother and her husband has to move since they cannot afford the rent that is very high.

Since my mother is very picky, My stepbrother was going to buy a condo and said that they could move into the condo in NY.  Mom doesn't want to move to NY and again will continue to be depressed because that means she will be away from my sister and her kids which she has been going back and forth.  The condo will be an hour away.  I have a feeling she will not be happy.

That also changes EVERYTHING with Craig and my plans since we were going down to Connecticut to move to be closer to her since she isn't getting any younger, and also be closer to my sister and her family.  Now Craig and I may just stay in Vermont and get a small house somewhere.  I am a little upset because I wanted to be closer to the family rather than 5 hours away.

I know we have to think of a place to settle down in and now I am a little confused what to do and where to go.  If something happens to Craig, I will be all alone here in Vermont.  If we move down to Connecticut, at least I would be around family for support.  So I worry about this whole situation.