House Hunting

We have been looking for a house these days.  We were going to find a house around here in Vermont but still it would be far away from my family.  It would take us about 5 hours to get there to Connecticut.  So we decided to check out the houses around Connecticut.  We would only be like an hour away from them which isn't too bad.  I hope we could find a nice descent house in a nice area where there is very low crime rate.

I was letting my mind wander and thinking is he doing all this for me preparing for me to live out my days in the house so that when he dies the house will be mine.  He did mention it that the house would be mine when he dies and if I wanted a roommate afterwards I could.  It saddens me to think about what will happen but I know its the reality of life.

Change of concerns

I am concerned about my mother.  My stepfather and her have to move at the end of the month.  She hasn't really looked since my sister has been doing all the looking.  Both my mother and my sister's family live in Connecticut.  Mom doesn't want to live in Danbury and there aren't any big apartments in Ridgefield.  So them both are going to stay with my sister for a while, which will be nice.  It would be awkward for my mother since she doesn't like my sister's husband because of his anger issues.  But we all have anger issues every once in a while, and he was nice enough to pay for their rents but cannot do it anymore which was why my mother and her husband has to move since they cannot afford the rent that is very high.

Since my mother is very picky, My stepbrother was going to buy a condo and said that they could move into the condo in NY.  Mom doesn't want to move to NY and again will continue to be depressed because that means she will be away from my sister and her kids which she has been going back and forth.  The condo will be an hour away.  I have a feeling she will not be happy.

That also changes EVERYTHING with Craig and my plans since we were going down to Connecticut to move to be closer to her since she isn't getting any younger, and also be closer to my sister and her family.  Now Craig and I may just stay in Vermont and get a small house somewhere.  I am a little upset because I wanted to be closer to the family rather than 5 hours away.

I know we have to think of a place to settle down in and now I am a little confused what to do and where to go.  If something happens to Craig, I will be all alone here in Vermont.  If we move down to Connecticut, at least I would be around family for support.  So I worry about this whole situation.

Ireland vs. Connecticut

So we were thinking about moving again.  I wanted to move to Northern Ireland and be close to my relatives.   I missed how things used to be when I used to live there in the 90s for 9 years.  I felt safe even though there was riots at night, but I never went out at night so it didn't bother me.  Also would give me the chance to get free medical as well.

But then we thought about Connecticut because my family are around that area.  My stepfather just turned 80 years old this week, which made me think about my mother's age as well.  Who knows how much time they have left in their life.  I thought it might be a wise idea to live closer to them.  It would give my mother the chance to come visit us as well.  She only went out to my sister's house, so if we move to Connecticut she could come see us as well.  She kept telling us she must come up to see us, but she's been saying that for years.  So at least if we move to Connecticut she would have another place to come visit.

Right now we are looking around for apartments in Connecticut so we just might be moving that way instead of Ireland.  I guess we could always visit Ireland whenever we want to when the funds are there for us.

Am I sad that I would miss out this opportunity to move to Ireland right now?  Sure I miss it.  I miss my friends and relatives as well.  But that could come later on I suppose.  I would like to settle down there some day.  But only time could tell.

*** I'll Be Home For Christmas ***

We decided to go down to Connecticut to see the family for a few days.  We actually left on Christmas morning and stayed until Monday morning.  Just as well we left Monday because we are getting snow for Tuesday.  We didn't want to get stuck in the snow.

I did end up seeing my 5 year old Niece for the very first time.  She didn't know who I was but when I told her that I was Uncle Brian, her face expression was just priceless.  Her mouth dropped and her eyes widen.

It was sad that I didn't get to see my brother as I thought I was going to but because he was dealing with issues of his own, I wouldn't be able to see him.  Maybe next time.

Craig, Richard, me

During our stay in Connecticut we had met a few friends from Facebook which was really nice.  We missed out on meeting our friend Richard back in June 2015 when we went to Connecticut to see the family.  Richard was nice enough to give me a few of his things which he was giving away such as some stuffed animals, a Duck Dynasty fleece blanket, and a big bear quilt.

Craig and me

We were going to go into Olive Garden but I suppose Richard wanted to go into Red Lobster which was next door, which was fine with us.   We got to meet some of his friends who came along with the gathering.

Peter, Rick, Richard, Andrea ,Craig

Andrea, Craig, me Peter, Rick

 It was really nice to finally meet Richard in person as well as meeting some of his friends.  We were having such a great laughable time but good things had to come to an end.  We had to depart our ways.

me Peter Craig

We then had to depart our ways. We we saying our goodbyes but we told them that we would see them again soon.  Richard and I began rubbing our beards together.  I could feel that he was sad and didn't want us to leave which was understanding.  I didn't want to leave either but we had to get back to my sister's house.

Craig Richard me

Researching continues

Lately we have been pretty stressed out not only with his condition with his hands trying to straighten them out as he cannot straighten them.  No muscle tissues on his top arms.  Also stressed out with the moving decisions.  We have been working our butts off with researching to relocate to Northern Ireland

We were in decision making either Ireland or Connecticut.  We had checked out Connecticut, and yes it would be nice to live down there and be closer to the Nieces and nephews but after our experience down there hearing mom's negativity it was getting in our space.  I was talking with Craig about this whole thing and we were thinking, do we really want to hear my mother's negativity day after day when she comes visit.  So we decided to push at Ireland.

I couldn't believe how much work we need to do between furniture to be sold, get the cats situated as well as us as well, process on getting there, and wondering if we need a VISA.  I had lived there before back in the 90s for 9 years and it was an experience.  It was different back then because it was just me and my clothes now its taking more responsibilities.

We are pushing to relocate this November and i am hoping we could be able to do this and make this big move.  I am very nervous about the whole thing.

Moving decisions

So we have been doing alot of researching to relocate to Ireland, all the research we could possibly can get so we could live comfortably there without any gaps.  Mom thinks that I am going to get arrested because she thinks I gave up my nationality as American.  She has no idea how much research we have been doing.  She knows how to use the computer but always jumped into conclusions.  The way I see it, if i did gave up my American citizenship, I wouldn't had gotten jobs here when I returned 2000 (see my experience while live in Ireland) "ALSO" I wouldn't had gotten my Social Security Disability.  I remember the time I lived there I was soo happy and felt safe there.  I don't think I ever was happy in the United States and how it has become.

During our time there we were looking through the town of Ridgefield, Connecticut to see what it is like there.  It was a nice small town.  Could I see myself living there?  Possibly.  Could Craig?  maybe because he needed to get services there such as certain clinics and doctors due to his condition.

So now we are on the decision on either Ireland or Connecticut.  But then again it would be nice to be closer to the children.  Also I hadn't seen my brother in years.

If I had the money I would take us to Ireland for sure, but I am not sure if I do have enough money saved up for Ireland, that could be a problem.

Getting away

Its been a while since we treated ourselves something. We really didn't do anything since we got to Maine 4 years ago since we don’t own a vehicle. Seeing all the Somalians are really depressing me and its not healthy for me and its not healthy for him either. He’s been housebound for two summers and he doesn't want to make a third. So what we did was that we decided to leave Maine state for a few days and head down to Connecticut to see family. I had a weird feeling about leaving the cats alone and the house abandon, and I don’t trust the Somalians and I never will, so I asked the maintenance guy and his wife to check in on the house making sure its okay and children aren't hanging around there. We were going to stay for 3 days but ended up staying an extra two days. It was a good time down there. I had dread going back to Maine and seeing the bullshit again.  I would like to go away again.

it was really nice for us to get away from area.  Also gives us time to spend more time with the family in Connecticut.  We do plan on going there again.  But I knew mom was going to talk something negative and continue doing that and it was sort of weird and tiring too on the matter that I had to remove myself from the conversation and I left him there with my mother and sister discussing about us relocating to Ireland.

So I don't know what's going to happen.

August Update

I haven't blogged on here for a month and I figure I would write about what's been going on with us.  Remember we were discussing to relocate?  Well we can't do anything until year so we are going to let that rest for a while until the New Years and get things sorted out then and see if anything changed after the New Years.

I had been taking Aleve pills and this is to hopefully help me with my lower back pain.  I take them in the morning.  Past couple of days its been okay when I work out but I still feel the lower back pain but I am able to do my deadlifts.

Robert has been having problems with his feet.  One foot has a rash which just recently appeared and the other foot has been having problems for the past several months healing, since he is a diabetic.  Doctor gave him a shoe to slip on and he is thinking of giving him another shoe for the other foot.  His doctor even thought about giving him a walker, for some reason the doc thinks it would do him more help than the HurryCane.  But we'll have to see how it goes, maybe the doc will change his mind.

Well the summer is almost over, and we were planning on going to see my sister in Connecticut but every time we pay our credit card, it goes back up to the limit again, so we wait until September and that's not going to happen either because right now its been up to the max.  I am trying to bring the credit card down to zero balance.

Skyping

Well we were skyping with my neice and nephews and they were really acting silly but that is typical of their silliness.  My niece was asking us when we are going to come down to see them.  What else could I say but other than I don't know.

It seems that whenever we go down there they are happy to see us.

Well as we were skyping they left the computer and left Robert and me hanging on skype.  I could do nothing else but to hang up.  I then found out that my mother said they were doing something I can't remember what but I think they were getting ready to leave.  I personally think that is rude.  I thought they might had sasid bye at least.  Well my niece did say bye but I wasn't sure if she meant it.  I thought she was just going into the other room but she continued to stay there.

So we might have to take a trip down to Connecticut to see them.