I'm won't be home for Christmas

Well, its about that time again.  Looks like we won't be going home for Christmas to see my folks.  It is very disappointing that nobody asked us to come down there so it is going to be the both of us at home with our 3 kitties having a quiet day in.  

I had decided that I wasn't going to go down to see the family during the holidays anymore.  It is always a stressful time of year and I think it would be best if we just stay put at home.

Cancellation of wedding

We had to cancel our wedding day due to the fact that the weather has been getting bad and he wasn't able to get around with his walker.  Also we had to return our rings a second time because they didn't fit our fingers.  We'll have to get another size up.  It was really small.

Its ridiculous.  Of course we got them at Overstock and they really don't measure the sizes of their rings properly. This size I have on me is an 8, I may have to go to a 9 or 9 1/2 which isn't my normal size but then again my fingers could had gotten bigger.

I think we were both disappointed, (I know I was) that we had to cancel our wedding day as well as returning the wedding rings.  We will get married just have to wait until the weather gets much better.

Update on the Taxi Accident

Wow, we got a letter in the mail and it was from the taxi service (A.S.A.P. Taxis)  and when we opened the envelope, it was shocking what we saw.  Only a $20.00 voucher within their company.  That was bullshit.  Very disappointed, especially the service that we enjoyed riding in.

Taxi accident

Hey guys, had a terrible experience yesterday. Craig and I nearly got killed in a taxi by the taxi driver fell asleep while driving. We yelled out him to wake up. He suddenly become aware what was happening as we went onto the footpath (sidewalk).  He looked at us and started smiling that would wake anyone up.  I started to roll my eyes.  We were lucky we are still alive. We complained to taxi service and I guess we are being rewarded. They are going to fire the guy.

Our Collage poster

Starting new

We finally moved into our 2 bedroom disabled duplex house.  It is such a relief to move out of the basement apartment.  Not only the cats could be able to move around but it has been easier for us as well to get around.  No more climbing stairs.

He decided to leave his doctor  Finally!  Something I wanted him to do for a while.  He doesn't need to hear the guilt trips all the time from her.  We are both disappointed with her unprofessionalism.  The things that she said to him was uncalled her.  Some of the things were
- I want you to feel the pain so you could be reminded to exercise (something to that association)
- You only went to the hospital so you could get pain pills.

So yes I am so glad that he left the clinic.  Since he left the clinic he is more relieved and has been sleeping better.

We had been having problems with the so-called caregiver who was Somali.  She wasn't allow to touch a main so he couldn't bathe him or dress him. So that left her with the cleaning around the house, which helped but I could had done the cleaning, and I felt like a loose thumb with not cleaning in the mornings.  The caregiver suppose to come in at 9am until 1pm, and it has gotten bad that she has been coming in later as late as 10.30am without any phone call, and when she is here she is only here for about an hour.  We had to let her go because she couldn't do the duties that a caregiver should really be doing, and after talking with her boss who happens to be one of the transportation guys who picks Craig up for his appointments Abdul (that's his name) couldn't guarantee that a man would be comfortable on doing bathing and dressing and such.   So Craig decided to change services since he wasn't happy with the services he was receiving.

I haven't been working out for the past week and a half due to no internet access and phone access because I document my workouts online.  I had also noticed that Craig hasn't been working out to gain his strength back, so I am going to try to work with him on his workouts as well.  I would love to see him do some cardio or HIIT program but that's not going to happen anytime soon due to his leg problems.

Moving Arrangements

Well we are moving.  After the management from the apartment complex saw Craig's condition and fell in front of her, she decided to move us up to the top of the list since there is a 2 bedroom house available.  This should be a relief for the both of us.

Give me a break

Well we finally got the help we need for someone to come in and help clean and cook to give me a break.  After helping Craig out 24/7 for several months it started to become too much on me and I am glad we got that help.  So Fatuma (that's her name) will come in the morning and do some cleaning and some cooking.  We'll see how it goes.

Only problem is that if Craig falls to the floor and I'm not here, she will not be able to have the strength to pick him up from the floor which will give him no other choice but to press the emergency button for someone to come over to help him out.

7 years

So this is our anniversary the day that I left Arizona to move to Vancouver Washington to be with Craig.  With everything that has been going on between happy times and hard times I still stayed close to him and always worry about him wondering what is going to happen.

We really didn't do anything for our anniversary but just relaxed and spend time together at home.  I guess it was a surprise that he chose yesterday to propose to me rather than today.  I guess that was an early time to celebrate together.

Proposed

This morning I put on Itunes and got Craig's Breakfast ready for him to eat.  He had me put on a specific song by The Carpenters - I Won't last a day without you.  He held my hands and told me that he wanted to go on his knee but he can't due to his leg not working properly like it used to. I actually may have him go on his knee again in another date so he could be able to do it again.  We'll see.

So anyways, he started crying, filled with emotion that if I would do the honor to be his Brian Sowle-ODoherty on December 8th which was his birthday.

I think he was thinking about the hard times he has been going through and each time I stuck by him rather than listening to my mother to leave him and move to Ireland, which I wasn't going to do.  I could never do that to anybody.

Relationship on a bumpy road right now.

please help Craig and his donation to help him get his wheelchair.

http://www.gofundme.com/d02cjo

Loosing hope

I need all your prayers for Craig to get better really soon as I think he is loosing hope on it and is really depressed and fed up with it that he actually told me that he doesn't blame me if I leave a crippled breaking down in tears. It is very sad to hear him say things like that.

Losing hope

I need all your prayers for Craig to get better really soon as I think he is loosing hope on it and is really depressed and fed up with it that he actually told me that he doesn't blame me if I leave a crippled breaking down in tears. It is very sad to hear him say things like that.  I hope things get better with this.

If its not one thing, its another

Its been quite a few months since I had posted an entry so here is an update that has been going on since the New Year 2014.

Even though Robert and I have our differences, I know that we won't leave each other because we do believe that we could make things work with commitment and support.

Speaking of support, its been a rough past year and a few months now that quite a few things has been happening with Robert.  Between two kidney failures one in Feb 2013, and the other is Nov 2013, he's been having toe problems and healing process since April 2013 last year and it is still trying to heal.  He cannot wait until he wears his own shoes again since he has been wearing these Velcro shoes.  Now he's got another problem.  His left eye has been closed shut for the past 3 weeks.  But until Monday, I noticed his eye was opening up slightly.  I am wondering if this is a good sign.  They are still trying to figure out what caused it.  one mentioned it could had been a minor stroke and hit the nerve or something which caused his lid to close shut not only that shifting his eye slightly away from his nose.

Its been pretty stressful for me and always watching out for him and making sure he doesn't fall or anything.  But I cannot imagine what he's going through.  He had mentioned that its one of those processes that you become depressed, grieving, and accepting what happened and so forth.  With all this is going on, he still has a strong soul.

Yep!  Robert's a fighter and he will not stop until the day he dies I guess, so its my duty to be by his side with support and knowing that he's not alone and I will always be with him.  That's what keeps us together.  That's what keeps us strong.

New Years 2014

Its been a few weeks since I last entered here.   I hope you all had a great Christmas.  We had a quiet one.  Nothing really special.  It was the same during New Years as well.  It was watching movies during the day and then switched on LiveStream because they were broadcasting the New York celebration.

No resolutions for us because it could be broken, so I am setting goals and its to continue to workout.