*** I'll Be Home For Christmas ***

We decided to go down to Connecticut to see the family for a few days.  We actually left on Christmas morning and stayed until Monday morning.  Just as well we left Monday because we are getting snow for Tuesday.  We didn't want to get stuck in the snow.

I did end up seeing my 5 year old Niece for the very first time.  She didn't know who I was but when I told her that I was Uncle Brian, her face expression was just priceless.  Her mouth dropped and her eyes widen.

It was sad that I didn't get to see my brother as I thought I was going to but because he was dealing with issues of his own, I wouldn't be able to see him.  Maybe next time.

Craig, Richard, me

During our stay in Connecticut we had met a few friends from Facebook which was really nice.  We missed out on meeting our friend Richard back in June 2015 when we went to Connecticut to see the family.  Richard was nice enough to give me a few of his things which he was giving away such as some stuffed animals, a Duck Dynasty fleece blanket, and a big bear quilt.

Craig and me

We were going to go into Olive Garden but I suppose Richard wanted to go into Red Lobster which was next door, which was fine with us.   We got to meet some of his friends who came along with the gathering.

Peter, Rick, Richard, Andrea ,Craig

Andrea, Craig, me Peter, Rick

 It was really nice to finally meet Richard in person as well as meeting some of his friends.  We were having such a great laughable time but good things had to come to an end.  We had to depart our ways.

me Peter Craig

We then had to depart our ways. We we saying our goodbyes but we told them that we would see them again soon.  Richard and I began rubbing our beards together.  I could feel that he was sad and didn't want us to leave which was understanding.  I didn't want to leave either but we had to get back to my sister's house.

Craig Richard me

Holidays

I don't know why I am very nervous about driving 4 hours to Connecticut to see the family.  I just don't want to get into crash by the crazy people driving on Christmas day.  It will be stressful wondering what to expect.  Im concerned with how Craig is going to do with his walker without falling over himself.  But he is much stronger now.

I haven't met my niece who is 5 years old now so it would be nice to meet her for the very first time in person even though we had skyped.  Also I haven't seen my brother in 10 years.  I don't even know if he will be at my sister's house which where we will be staying.  It would be first time in 10 years since four of us kids were reunited, so I would think it would be nice to be together.  I am also not looking forward to what drama the family has.

We were going to go to a restaurant as we have reservations on Christmas Eve for dinner, but he has been feeling weird and losing sleep over it that I have to go with him to the bathroom with him making sure that he doesn't fall or wiped or whichever.  He does have trouble cleaning himself so I have to be by his side on that.  I told him we didn't have to go to the restaurant since it was just a reservation.  We were going to go to a cafe instead for lunch and then spend Christmas eve watching Christmas movies.

We had a surprise package which was presents from Craig's mother which is now under the tree waiting for Christmas Eve to open the presents.  It was nice of her to send the presents to us.

Packing

Halloween Eve and we had packed up like crazy.  Our maintenance guy was really nice enough to help us out with the loading, driving our things to Vermont, and then unload over there to Vermont.  I am going to miss him and his wife.  They have been so nice to us.

The waiting

One thing I hate is waiting for something, especially this house we have been waiting for to move into.  Its on its last process.  Its pretty stressful and I'm coming to a point now that I can't wait to leave Maine completely.  I'm so over with this state.  I'll never return to this state.  There is nothing here that Maine could offer me.  Craig knows how I am feeling and he also can't wait to get all this over and done with.

I'm pretty excited on moving to Vermont and seeing what its like.  I am pretty nervous about the wild animals there like the bear for example.  From what we gathered from the woman who lives in the house the bear would come onto the property and eat the bird seeds.    I think they would be afraid of humans but then again I don't know.

Things are going smoothly

Well it seems that the plans on moving out of Maine state is starting to run smoothly.  I am pretty much excited but very nervous on making this move.  I don't know why I am nervous. I just don't want any fall downs like what if the woman changes her mind on the house (even though Craig said that the woman said the house was on the market for about a year), or how we are going to get the vehicle down to Vermont with the truck, wondering if we are going to get the help on loading and unloading the truck, are we going to have enough money for this transition.  I actually like the house and I would like everything to go as planned and as smoothly.  I just want this transition over and done with so we could live comfortably in our new home.  I am not looking forward to the moving and driving down there for 4 hours with the possibility of a car dolly in the back of the truck.  Its making me nervous to even think about it.  I don't even know if I could do it safely.  I don't want to mess up the vehicle.

Another worry about living in this house is that the only transportation we have is the vehicle and if something happens to this vehicle then we are screwed because we probably wouldn't have the money to repairs.  But I am trying not to think about it.  I consider myself a good driver.  Out of the 13 years I have been driving, only been in one accident and that was a ding.

We finally picked up the transfer voucher so we could be able to get the house on since we are going through this program where we could be able to get a grant through under his Section 8 even I would be under the lease as well.

I was surprised to hear why we are getting this house.  Since we cannot afford going to Ireland due to the cats (we are not going to give them away), he's preparing me to live a comfortable life for if he passes on I would have a place to live.  Tears came streaming down my face as I laid in bed thinking about it.  It was the nicest thing to hear about what someone is going to do for me.

Through sickness and health

Lots of people would just leave their spouses due to their condition.  I'm not one of those people since I believe that my heart is where it should be.  I don't think I could put Craig into assisted living.  I was surprised my mother wanted me to put Craig into assisted living and move over to Ireland.  I was pissed off when she said that to me.  Its not like her to say something like that.  I mean would she put her husband in an assisted living?  Of course not, so why even say it?

Seeing Craig talk about how messed up his life is physically, I see that he's either being burnt out because he fought for so long and its taking a long time for his healing since he's a diabetic or he would still be sleeping and mumbles in his sleep.  He does talk like this when he is tired and sleepy.  Hearing him talk like this does make me sad, but I try to boost up with his confidence and being positive about the whole thing.  I know he wishes things were the way they were

It didn't take me that long until I realize how many people have such staring problems when they see Craig walk with his walker.  This does bother me and he knows that people are staring at him too.  Its as if they never saw someone walk with a walker before.  I'm sure when that time comes it will happen to them.

Stowe Vermont

Well last Saturday we bought a new vehicle in Laconia, New Hampshire.  We rented out a vehicle and had to drop it off down there.  Luckily it was next to the car dealership.  We thought we weren't going to get a vehicle but after bending some strings they helped us get a vehicle.

So we  decided to head over to Vermont again. This time we went to Stowe area to a B & B called Timberholm Lodge which was a gay friendly lodge.  First night we stayed put. It was a long drive and the GPS lost signal twice and ended up getting lost, so we were driving 6 hours.

During our stay we went to check out a house and it was nice property.  It would be nice to have that house.  But I think we will not get it since we don't plan on relocating until Springtime.  We would have to wait until Winter is over and then head over there.  At least we would have some money saved up.  We also checked out Waterbury, and Montpelier for a drive around.  Also had stopped by the Ben & Jerry's ice cream factory.  What was really beautiful is that we went out at 6 am to watch the Sunrise and it was beautiful.  Pity I didn't get to take pictures of that.

We had taken some walks too due to his diabetes as they were pretty high in the 300 range.  We were having a nice time when we had to call it an end.  My concerned was to drive back again for 4 1/2 hours.  I also fear of crashing or something like that.  

Northern Ireland or Vermont

Lately we have been talking about relocation.  He already knows that I want to move back home to Northern Ireland.  I call Ireland home because both parents are from there and all my relatives are there, even though I am born and raised in the United States.
Everything I think about Ireland and what it would feel like to be living there, I think about the things such as living in just outside the town like Claudy and having a little bungalow house or something, with a vehicle, settled down and living comfortably with our 3 cats.  He thinks it would be great to live in Ireland, but his concerns are with the illegal immigrants trying to get into England.  Also the 3 cats are a problem which we don't know if we could get the funds for them.  We only collected a small amount but that doesn't even cover rent right now.

help-bring-our-cats-back-home-to-ireland

Everything that has been talked about has been a struggle and alot of stress upon us.  Well I'm scared myself on returning because my concerns about it is that I am wondering how I am going to continue my social security disability and wonder how that works with them.  I mean, I know I could bring we could bring both of our SSD over there.  Their system could be different.  I'm not sure.  Also wondering if he will get the treatments that he needs since he has to go once a month to IV fusion to help his immune system.  Also medications and housing, and a vehicle and possibly furniture, however there are places that are furnished.

We had been talking about Vermont here and there.  There are things that are already in place, like Section 8, and don't have to worry about our SSD being cut off.  Also we could get a small house possibly and also a vehicle.  I could also get my gym that I always wanted.  But at the same time I don't feel safe in the US for some reason the way I did with Northern Ireland.  I don't know why but I just do.

Nauseous feeling

Just waking up as I heard some splashing in the toilet.  It was the sound of vomiting.  I bounced up out of bed and asked Craig what is wrong.  He told me that he wasn't sure and felt nauseous.  He thinks it may be the heat.   It has been very hot here in Maine which could be it.  He felt sweats one minute then he felt chills.  I had grabbed him some water so he could replace that water that he threw up.

I was thinking about him being nauseous and what actually might had caused it.  I thought it was the move or Housing as he has been thinking these two things alot lately, especially losing the Housing.  Not sure why.  He thinks that we may pay more for our rent.  I hope not as we were told that it wouldn't go higher after my Disability came through.  I told him what I thought about and he told me that he has thought about those things but not in a negative way.  I suppose he could be feeling nervous about a lot of things which made him feel nauseous.

He went back to sleep so I will have to keep an eye out on him.

Trip to Vermont

So we decided to get away from Portland, Maine for a while and head over to Burlington,Vermont to see what that was like.  It was a nice get away, but a very long drive.  The hotel "Anchorage Inn" on Dorset Street wasn't that bad of a hotel.  Something simple nothing too fancy.

Before we left for Vermont there were things we needed to do such as getting him his passport photos, and going to the DMV to get his identification card.  Sad that he fell at the DMV and scraped his knee.  Manager was very nice to help out.  

It was only a couple of days we stayed in Vermont, which wasn't enough time to really know the place.  Why did we go there?  Well we are still undecided what to do with our moving situation.  Since it was a long drive the day we arrived I was so exhausted I didn't really want to do anything, so we just went next door to a Japanese restaurant called Hana.  Nice food there.

 

The next day we ended up buying an updated GPS, which turned out to be an easy to read one.  Afterwards we gone to Denny's for breakfast and then headed over to the Waterfront for a few hours.  We had to pay $8.00 to get in to the Waterfront Park, but that was fine.

It was just as well we brought his wheelchair for long days like that day because he wouldn't have the energy for his legs as he still has problems falling.

We noticed there was a very small beach where people could hang out and catch some sun.  There was a path along the Bay where people could walk and cycle.  I couldn't believe how hot it was that day.  Pity that he couldn't hold the camera up too well because of his wrists to take pictures so I had to stop so often to take a few pictures.  

It was such a peaceful area.  I would recommend this place if those who wish to visit Vermont and to check out the Waterfront.  I could had stayed there all day, but because I was getting dehydrated we didn't think about bringing bottle water, so we had to leave.  I could see myself returning back to Vermont.  As for relocating, I am still not sure as my heart is still on Ireland.  So it has been a big decision.

The next morning was going home.  Another long drive to return.  This time we took it straight through which was the scenic route.  It was nice to see the scenic route.  The drive took longer but it was the shortest way.  

We went through Littleton, New Hampshire and had to take a quick stop.  Not only going to the bathroom but my body was getting stiff from the drive so it was nice to take a walk around.  Craig thought he was able to walk over to the bathroom but had fell along the pathway.  That's when I thought he needed his walker to get to the bathroom.  He did scrape himself, just as well I brought first aid kit, which I am going to start bringing with me for now on everywhere we go.

Craig took several shots of me and each time he took it turned out blurred due to his hands.  He couldn't hold it up properly, so there was only one way to do this and set the camera on timer.  I was kind of getting frustrated because each time (anytime) he takes a picture turns out blurred so i thought screw it.    

It was nice to get back home.  We ended up doing a couple of things before returning the vehicle because the vehicle had to be returned the next day but we brought it back a day early to discover that we were ripped off.  It wasn't approximately $200 for everything, which she said was a good deal, instead it was almost $500 for the week.  So Craig thought he would never go through that company again meaning the one downtown rather the one by the airport.

To be honest enterprise on Marginal Way really did look trashy.  And the vehicle didn't look clean inside because there was a stain in the back seat of the car.  I smelled urine during the whole time we had the vehicle.  Never again we will go to that Enterprise.

Pet nightmare

I had a nightmare last night that we had given away Bella our cat, we stopped by the person's house to see how Bella does in the environment and was comfortable right up to when Craig and I were leaving. When we left the house she ran at the window watching us leave putting her paw on the window meowing

Bella relaxing on her favorite rug

Bell is always up to something

I fear that we may have to give away our three furry kids.  They all have been with us since kitten-hood.  They are very expensive to take overseas with us.  I really do not know what we are going to do with them all.  Its too heartbroken to give them away.

Buster & Augustina

Frustrations continues

We both have been very frustrated these days.  I think part of the reason is that we are going to be moving soon back to Ireland.  We are trying all areas to be able to keep the cats, but they seem to be in the way with expenses.  I am not sure I am ready to give them away. Either Craig.  We had planned on leaving November and may have to wait until next year to have enough money saved up.  I don't know.  We don't even make much money.  So it kind of puts us in an awkward position on our moving situation.

Getting stronger

Its good to see Craig's legs are getting stronger from his exercises.  He has came a long way with his therapy but sadly that his insurance couldn't cover his therapy anymore as it reached to its max.  All he needs to do now is to continue exercising daily with his legs and arms.  I still cannot understand and why his hands are curved under his wrists and how that happened.  Eventhough he doesn't use the walker in the house I am still concerned that he may fall forward and would break his wrists altogether with the impact to the floor.

We have been going out for walks a couple of times a day every other day.  Just seems that he gets tired after those two walks on that one day, and its only around the block which is like a half a mile.  This takes about 30 to 40 minute walk because of his walker.  Great to see the walker have wheels it makes things move a bit faster for him.

Researching continues

Lately we have been pretty stressed out not only with his condition with his hands trying to straighten them out as he cannot straighten them.  No muscle tissues on his top arms.  Also stressed out with the moving decisions.  We have been working our butts off with researching to relocate to Northern Ireland

We were in decision making either Ireland or Connecticut.  We had checked out Connecticut, and yes it would be nice to live down there and be closer to the Nieces and nephews but after our experience down there hearing mom's negativity it was getting in our space.  I was talking with Craig about this whole thing and we were thinking, do we really want to hear my mother's negativity day after day when she comes visit.  So we decided to push at Ireland.

I couldn't believe how much work we need to do between furniture to be sold, get the cats situated as well as us as well, process on getting there, and wondering if we need a VISA.  I had lived there before back in the 90s for 9 years and it was an experience.  It was different back then because it was just me and my clothes now its taking more responsibilities.

We are pushing to relocate this November and i am hoping we could be able to do this and make this big move.  I am very nervous about the whole thing.

Moving decisions

So we have been doing alot of researching to relocate to Ireland, all the research we could possibly can get so we could live comfortably there without any gaps.  Mom thinks that I am going to get arrested because she thinks I gave up my nationality as American.  She has no idea how much research we have been doing.  She knows how to use the computer but always jumped into conclusions.  The way I see it, if i did gave up my American citizenship, I wouldn't had gotten jobs here when I returned 2000 (see my experience while live in Ireland) "ALSO" I wouldn't had gotten my Social Security Disability.  I remember the time I lived there I was soo happy and felt safe there.  I don't think I ever was happy in the United States and how it has become.

During our time there we were looking through the town of Ridgefield, Connecticut to see what it is like there.  It was a nice small town.  Could I see myself living there?  Possibly.  Could Craig?  maybe because he needed to get services there such as certain clinics and doctors due to his condition.

So now we are on the decision on either Ireland or Connecticut.  But then again it would be nice to be closer to the children.  Also I hadn't seen my brother in years.

If I had the money I would take us to Ireland for sure, but I am not sure if I do have enough money saved up for Ireland, that could be a problem.

Getting away

Its been a while since we treated ourselves something. We really didn't do anything since we got to Maine 4 years ago since we don’t own a vehicle. Seeing all the Somalians are really depressing me and its not healthy for me and its not healthy for him either. He’s been housebound for two summers and he doesn't want to make a third. So what we did was that we decided to leave Maine state for a few days and head down to Connecticut to see family. I had a weird feeling about leaving the cats alone and the house abandon, and I don’t trust the Somalians and I never will, so I asked the maintenance guy and his wife to check in on the house making sure its okay and children aren't hanging around there. We were going to stay for 3 days but ended up staying an extra two days. It was a good time down there. I had dread going back to Maine and seeing the bullshit again.  I would like to go away again.

it was really nice for us to get away from area.  Also gives us time to spend more time with the family in Connecticut.  We do plan on going there again.  But I knew mom was going to talk something negative and continue doing that and it was sort of weird and tiring too on the matter that I had to remove myself from the conversation and I left him there with my mother and sister discussing about us relocating to Ireland.

So I don't know what's going to happen.

Its a bumpy road

The past few nights has been interesting.  I have been hearing quite a few things about Craig and his past as I guess he needs to get it off his chest, but the ones that goes into debt he never got into and in time he will tell me.  I knew part of it was what happened to him in the past and at the same time I knew that it was his old doctor (Ann Lemire) who he now calls the dragon lady was stirring up his emotions.  Also what I had learned that he was talking to his counselor about us, which we were on bumpy roads at times since we both met, and he ended up telling the doctor who works at the clinic as well under the same roof as the doctor.  It annoyed me because counselors aren't suppose to say anything outside of the room of the counselor's office, the counselor told the doctor.  So she told Craig that he needed to ask me to leave the house.  In other words she was trying to break us up.

Sometime last year I guess a button was pressed in his head and he ended up getting fed up and asked me to leave.  I didn't know what he was talking about and was confused.  He kept repeating himself that I needed to leave and go back to my family or have my sister give me a ticket to return to Ireland or something as he put it, but I had to leave.  I was putting the puzzle together to even why he was saying all this and the dragon lady was behind all this.

I eventually became very emotional and was in a panic stage.  I wondered what was going to happen to me because at the time I was waiting for my disability, no money was coming in, and I wasn't going to go down to my family as they are the last people I wanted to stay with.  They are a good family and would watch out for me but i would be feeling that the little boy is returning home from school or from running away.

I ended up calling my sister with tears going down my face and she was concerned on whats happening to me. I was talking to her about 10 minutes and she wanted to talk to Craig and after a good 20 minutes of talking he handed over phone back to me as I was talking to her again she was telling me that I have to realize that he was really sick because what he was going through and went through 2 kidney failures.  The outcome of this was he was going to give me 30 days and see how it goes.  The past 30 days I had remained calm because I do have my moments as well.

What we also discussed about these past couple of days was that from the beginning of meeting together and officially boyfriends, he kept his distance and was feared of getting hurt again.  I felt that neglected for 5 or 6 years that I was started to become a loss of interest with him that I ended up searching for another guy online, not to leave Craig, but a boyfriend on the side who would care the way I wanted to be treated, the way I wanted to be kissed and not a kiss by a heterosexual pecking my lips.

I felt very alone with all this that is happening, I was wondering where my life was heading.  I was still waiting for my disability to come through, at the same time if I had would had left him, wondering if he would be okay.  I am pretty much of a caring person, but as I mentioned I do have my moments.

Is it going to end?

Last night I had been feeling emotional in bed.  I was putting on Craig's hand supporters to help him keep his wrists up and was thinking back how he was able to use his hands with pain free as well in his legs.  He was telling me about that this is life and we would have to deal with things like this whether we like it or not.  He is getting slightly better, I wish it was now.  I suppose that I am worrying about if this is going to be the way his life is going to be, and receiving those monthly treatments at the IV fusion place to help his immune system.

I was thinking back the times before any of this has happened.  Approximately 2 1/2 years ago one day he left the house on his appointment feeling fine and dandy until he came back and got out of the cab and his leg gave up.  That's when things started happening.  I also was thinking about how he used to cook dinners and helping around the house and taking those walks.  I think that kind of hit me when i was laying in bed last time.

Do you know how things in life change?  I don't know why but I cannot seem to accept that whole thing had happened to him and I just want to wake up from this dream

The Hands and Legs

It seems that Craig has been a little depressed about his condition.  He is feeling pain in his left leg and wondering if he would have straight hands again since his wrists are pushed downwards making his hands down like a puppy's front paw as if the front leg was up.  There is little muscle meat on the top of his forearm which makes it difficult for him to lift his hands up since that's where he could be able to have the strength in him.  if he has that, then he would be able to lift his hands up. He doesn't even know if the physical therapy is working.  The therapist see some movement, Time is running out and doesn't know if his insurance will cover it.  He just has to continue with his homework at home, even after the treatments are over.  

It snowed today so he didn't want to risk going outside and falling.  I think part of the reason is that he is loosing hope on getting better.  He's so burnt out fighting and fighting with his condition that he just wants it over and have his life back again.  I could understand that.  I get burnt out too because I am still lifting him up from the sofa and wiping himself after he goes to the bathroom and doing other things too.

Researching

Well we have been doing some researching to relocate back to Northern Ireland.  Yes, that's right.  I think its time to leave the US permanently and start a new life somewhere else.  I know Derry pretty well since I had lived there for 9 years.  I had sent some emails out for imformation, so I hope to get the information that I need.  This will be different for me because I am now with someone and we have three cats.  I also have been asking my friends there what they could do to help us out.  He actually wants to relocate to Spain but I think that once we are settled in Derry, we could be able to take trips to Spain if he wanted to.

Not giving up

ITs 8:50pm and just finished watching Eighteen when Craig had to go to the bathroom.  I was in the livingroom when I heard sounds coming from the bathrooom, sniffling.  I knew that he was crying.  He broke out in tears when I went in there.   I know that he wishes his hands weren't curled in the way they are.  He kept crying saying he isn't ready to throw in the towel.  There are soo much things he is doing and is not giving up.  He's going through physical therapy and doing some pool exercises which are good for him.  I suppose his insurance is up to the Max or something and its up the physical therapist to add more paperwork to get an extend.  I too wish things were the way they were.  He just has to keep trying and pushing at making his hands get better, its the only way he could do this right so he could recover through all this.

Back to life, back to reality

Now that the caregiver is gone we could think about getting back to the swing of things.  I can't believe we are still talking about her.   I just want to forget her and move on with our lives just like she is as well I'm sure.

I know its my duty to watch over Robert and take care of him and making sure nothing happens to him because he needs me.  He would do the same for me.  Yes it is frustrating but that's just life.  I have to be able to control myself and not feeling the need of being under pressure and not to be difficult because I can be but I do love him and love being with him and taking care of each other.

We do plan on getting married once that the weather gets much better.  Oh yes, that is still in the books.

Its so nice we had this together...

We had to have our caregiver to leave work due to things that she has been doing that could be dangerous for both Robert and me.  Don't get me wrong the caregiver was really nice and could do her work great.  She is very fast at her work.  Very friendly Christian.

I have been aware of the dangers of Robert and me:

- we have to watch out for what we say because she was a Christian

- she has been taking us both on appointments and shopping with the use of her vehicle and she can be brainless ie she may drive too close to the driver in front, switching lanes when she isn't suppose to.

- She used a hand towel that had been using 

- I noticed that the back door has been opened a couple of times and she made it wasn't her.  We never go out the back door.  I normally keep the door in a way that you could open the door from the inside but after closing it, the door would lock on the outside.  The button was always opened on the knob so both sides could be opened.

- She placed her coffee Thermos in the microwave for 2 minutes and started a fire 

- She used our hand towel which we use for our faces and clean our bodies with by using Soft Scrub.  
I was wondering why my face has been smelling like Soft Scrub everywhere I go.  Then she told me that she has been using it for toilets and other cleaning areas.  I was furious.  She said she did not know but I think it is commonsense that you don't place bleached cloths on top of colored cloths (which our hand towel was).  I don't even know why she was using the hand cloths in the first place for cleaning.

After Robert and I had a discussion about me speaking up since I don't really speak my mind, because I don' like to hurt people's feelings, I decided to speak my mind toward her and that when things started to get hostile.  I started to get upset that I didn't want to have to deal with anything that came my way.  And I had an appointment with my counselor and had canceled it.  I had to remove myself

There was hostility between the caregiver and me.  I felt very awkward about it and I suddenly felt uncomfortable her around especially her disrespecting me whenever Robert and I had a disagreement about something.  She had nothing to do with our relationship.  I didn't want to argue or disagreement with my partner as long as "the guest" as I put it.  She said she wasn't a guest.  I wasn't going to back down and told her that she was a guest and not going to have a discussion as long as she was around.  Even after she left I was still quiet and didn't really want to talk for the evening.

Robert and I eventually talked because he really thought I was going to leave him.  He has been hurt in the past.  Everyone has been hurt in the past and that's just life and we have to find a way to cope and live through it.  Even I have been hurt in the past.

So the outcome of it that we had to let her go, otherwise it would be continuously hostility and I didn't want to feel that I was in the wrong all the time because I wasn't.  I didn't want to have to think something to happen and I refuse to allow someone like that to overpower me like that.

This situation nearly jeopardize our relationship and what will happen now.  The only thing I could think of is just to talk to him about what will happen and not to worry about what will happen even though we as people say things when we are angry and upset.

I feel relieved that she is gone because I also didn't like how she was going through our files and documentation.  Now we could be able to continue with our life.

Its funny because when I opened the front door to check the mail, the blanket that I had for her for Christmas was returned.  That was okay showed where her morals were and very stubborn and immature.  But lucky me, I have an offer for that particular blanket to sell it for $100.00.  My friend wants it so it all turned out fine.  I could use the money too.

Improvements

I'm impressed with the improvements Craig is becoming.   With the help of the physical therapist and occupational therapist for several weeks now going, they have seen some changes in him.  Not much but you are able to see the difference from where he was once was.   I am glad that he is able to see the help that he finally needs.  I am so glad that he left his old Doctor.  He is now out of his wheelchair, and doesn't use his walker in the house anymore.   He should had gotten physical therapy a long time ago which his old Doctor Ann Lemire didn't really want him to go.  I still blame her who is a terrible doctor when it comes to decisions and respecting the patients needs.

I had read some reviews about his old doctor and they weren't really good, the ratings were very poor, and I am not surprised either.  She shouldn't be working anymore.

Well, now that he is getting the help that he needs, he could be able to move forward to better things and getting stronger.  HIS JOURNEY CONTINUES TO A FULL RECOVERY....

waiting at the eye doctors